My best friend went through what you're going through, and I still remember the hell that he experienced. He's a Marine and he told me after finishing his Masters in teaching that it sucked big time compared to the Marines.
He also had an evil Masters professor (can't remember the title of the person...something like sponsor or some such) that seemed to want him to fail as a teacher. So while he didn't have kids, he had other stresses heaped upon him.
It ain't easy. It ain't fun. I definitely feel for ya, as I saw what it did to him while he was going through it. I can't imagine how draining it must be having kids at the same time.
The only thing I can suggest is to focus on something, one thing, that can bring you through this. Also, I know it's trying for both you and your wife, but make sure you take some time to keep your wife in the loop. It's straining for you both, so don't forget to do a little extra to make sure you impress on her that you appreciate her through all this. Sure, you feel you're going through it too so she should appreciate you too, but it's the mindset. A person can't really "quit" children, you can a college class. So find something that you can focus on for a drive to finish the class and get your Masters. Just don't lose what you have now while you're doing it.
Also, student teaching is a completely thankless job. You do a ton of work, get no credit, get all the grief AND have to do your studies. Just think to what you'll be able to do once you throw the yoke of student teaching off and have your own class.
Hang in there!
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