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Originally Posted by kato13
I just want to say again Nate that we are all pulling for you. Today being an anniversary just means that hopefully you are pulling further away from the worst of the situations. God did reach out and give you a second chance for a reason and you purpose is not fulfilled yet. If we can be here for inspiration, distraction, venting, support, or anything else please take advantage of it.
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thank you kato. i really wish i had someone here with me right now. i need help and support that being in this apartment alone all the time. all i have is the TV and the internet. having you guys has helped. but its not the same as having someone to hold me when i am crying because there is a commercial on with babies, or the show that i'm watching has a child and father in it. i miss my sons so damn bad. it's killing me. i really wish she wouldn't have done this. why did she promise she wouldn't do this, and still do it? why did she say she loved me and wanted me when i woke up? how can someone just stop loving you? i dont understand it. i still love everyone i have ever loved.
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Fuck being a hero. Do you know what you get for being a hero? Nothing! You get shot at. You get a little pat on the back, blah blah blah, attaboy! You get divorced... Your wife can't remember your last name, your kids don't want to talk to you... You get to eat a lot of meals by yourself. Trust me kid, nobody wants to be that guy. I do this because there is nobody else to do it right now. Believe me if there was somebody else to do it, I would let them do it. There's not, so I'm doing it.
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