Thank you all for your kind words. he was a great guy. so many have been joining in our greif. mom said she had to leave the house yesterday since they had... so many calling and it was just to much for her. i couldn't get ahold of her all day. she stayed out until 10pm and then turne the phone off. because she kept looking at dad's daybed where he would sleep or sit watching TV. and she would just start crying. the past two years his health was so bad because of all the stuff from agent orange and emma taking the boys to the UK. it's why i feel like suchh a damn failure. mom said that it was killing him that she was doing this, that i just didn't have the money to go and see them. and i cant help but feel that it's my fault.
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Fuck being a hero. Do you know what you get for being a hero? Nothing! You get shot at. You get a little pat on the back, blah blah blah, attaboy! You get divorced... Your wife can't remember your last name, your kids don't want to talk to you... You get to eat a lot of meals by yourself. Trust me kid, nobody wants to be that guy. I do this because there is nobody else to do it right now. Believe me if there was somebody else to do it, I would let them do it. There's not, so I'm doing it.
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10-22-2010, 12:37 PM
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